what advice would you give someone struggling with their sexuality?
From personal experience, I can relate to this situation. I can recall on several occasions in grade school being asked if I was gay. I would immediately respond "No", without any hesitation...Only to later question myself, & doubt my sexuality. I had always known that I was different from most other young boys my age, but I never knew why. There were even moments where I'd look at other guys and try to imitate their actions. In middle school, I began entering relationships with cute girls, only to show them off to my male friends. But as time progressed, so did my curiosity in trying to understand my difference. I couldn't understand why I didn't relate to most other guys. Eventually, (somewhere between middle & high school) I started looking at dudes, having intimate desires. I kept this feeling inside of me & never shared it with anyone up until the 9th grade. That’s when I decided to feed my curiosity. I started talking to other young men my age over MySpace. I even went as far as exchanging numbers to the few that I was strongly attracted to. Night after night, we conversed over the phone for hours at a time. Fast-forward two years later, I was allowing another dude to give me head. Upon my senior year, my sexuality was still under scrutiny by my peers. Only now, I didn't give a damn. I didn't care how others viewed me...& I wasn't gonna continue to play, fake, or LIE as if I was attracted to girls any longer. When asked if I was gay or interested in other guys, (Depending upon who was asking & if they asked respectfully); I’d answer yes.
I say this, to relay this message:
Usually, if someone is struggling with their sexuality, then they’re already finding themselves interested in others of their same sex. *Not necessarily to say that EVERYONE that is straddling the fence or is unsure of his or her sexuality is gay/bisexual. I say this in attempt to help you identify what is causing you to question your sexual preference.
So, as advice is concerned...I have one question?
Are you concerned with if others will accept you or not?
I HAD NO INTENTIONS in typing all of this, but my thoughts just wouldn’t stop overflowing. If you’d like, you can inbox me, if you need someone to talk to. I’m a pretty confidential person. Or if you’d like to remain anonymous, that’s ok as well. Self Identity is something that we must all face before being able to be content with life.
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