Sunday, August 16, 2009

That lady really knows how to piss me off!

She really pissed me off today! For the second time within a week, we argued over her using my debit card without my permission. Yeah, I understand that she said that she is going to replace the money, but that doesn’t address the problem that’s at hand. For one, I don’t sponsor other people’s addictions…especially grown people’s! Two, she never asked me if she could charge my card. Instead, she just went swiping away. *Lets flip this situation: What if I decided that I wanted to go to the mall with a couple of friends? I know that I don’t have any money and I notice that my mom left her purse on the kitchen counter. So, I ramble through it, searching for cash. Bingo…I find $150! Off to the mall I go, with my friends…& her money! While at the mall, I pick up an Express graphic T and a pair of Nike blazers. After day of shopping “At my mom’s expense”, I return home. Once there, she asked if I had seen where she placed her money. I say, “Yeah, ma. You put it in your purse. But I took it out to go to the mall. I know I’m getting some money pretty soon. I’ll pay you back when I get it.” Wtf!? NO!...No, no, no! My mama would’ve probably busted me upside my head!

However you look at it, taking something that does not belong to you…without permission is STEALING!

SEX…


Hmmm…Lol. Everyone is always indulging in freaky conversations about how great their sex lives are. Well, mine isn’t so great. Not at this moment, anyway! Lol. Tomorrow will make a year since my last sexual encounter. Not engaging in sexual activity has certainly allowed poisons to enter my daily thoughts. My mind has taken me to explicit places & untouched heights that I could’ve never anticipated. Sensual thoughts of both friends & strangers doing ungodly things in the most random places. From innocent one on one sessions with yearlong boos to lustful fantasies of vulgar public sex. Many, indecent acts of raging hormones ready to explode and be released from not only my exploited mind, but my yearning body as well. As each day pass, it becomes more common for me to notice this throbbing sensation that wants to adventure. My mind is beginning to weaken. I don’t think I can last without it much longer. The desire to caress the body of another has turned from a slight crave to a major necessity. Lately, I can’t help but notice that the urge to watch porn has become more of an infatuation. This uncontrollable X-Rated attraction is unbearable! Upload after upload, the Book of Faces seem to tease me with damn-near naked photos from sexually aroused college students. Some are apart of an ongoing list of individuals who I could fuck…or at least “shing” with. This feeling just won’t leave me alone. Maybe I should just give in…